It’s time to move on.
Time to move forward.
Time to say goodbye to all the pieces I’ve lost- pieces that were taken from me.
Goodbye to the three-year-old me’s innocence. You didn’t deserve to be hurt and destroyed. You deserved to be protected. You deserved to be loved and cherished.
Goodbye to my 15-year-old youth. I don’t know what he did to you but I am sorry it happened. I’m sorry you had to deal with it alone. I’m sorry no one noticed. You deserved someone to have seen your pain. You deserve the protection.
Goodbye to the 28-year-old woman who so desperately wanted to be seen and chosen that she settled for the wolves in sheep‘s clothing. You deserved your No’s to be respected. You deserved a partner who loved you, who respected you, someone to take care of you.
Goodbye to the 43-year-old woman who carries unspeakable pain. A woman carrying the pains of lifetimes. A woman whose courage knows no bounds but is tired of fighting, of being on guard. Waiting for the next trauma.
Goodbye to all the me’s that believe this is what we deserved. That we couldn’t ask for more. Goodbye to the weight of disgusting. Goodbye to a body abused and burdened. Goodbye to the terror and the horror we hold in our bones.
Time to say hello
It is time to say hello to new possibilities. It is time to move forward with love and joy.
It is time to live like a woman whose courage knows no bounds.
It is time to seek joy pleasure and connection.
It is time to breathe new life into the container of possibilities.
It is time to be seen and to see myself through the eyes of others until I can see myself.
It is time to pursue life with a thirst and hunger that lives deep inside.
You know more now. You can do hard things. And you can allow goodness in your life.
You are blessed with connections that adore you and you can lean on them. You can turn to them.
You are capable of big things.
You are a force to be reckoned with.
Your heart is the answer. Your heart will protect you.
You are not stuck. Look around and see you survived. You got out.
Breathe into the fear and look around.
I promise it will be OK.
Go on now. It is time to live.